PLACIDITY

It isn't perturbing to be alone,
Nor it needs to be shown.
Only a little disbalance towards the wrong end,
Toppling over and around shall be the trend.
An undesirable pinch on a sensetive nerve,
That dislodge and the following swerve.
That attempt to startle in disguise,
Failed totally what you had despised.
Reflecting withdrawal symptoms from sanity,
Revealing a disclosure, full of disparity.
Prohibiting my conscince from overlooking the obvious.
Truth in disguise suddenly felt vicious.
Inability to gather strength from a pure soul,
Instability and the desire within makes me bawl.
Beyond reckoning now the gaping hole,
Exasperating the need for your role.
Plunged in that emptiness abound,
Cause its a circle, what goes comes back around.
Amplified is the treble through circumstances,
What was a self initiated clutter when I took my chances.
Bruised and numb synonymous to my foreground,
Now soothing to the ears is the silence of sound.
Pertaining to the ideologies around, I'm a goner,
Soon shall it be finished, rather sooner.
I'm baffled, from where came this toxicity.
Is this insanity,or simply PLACIDITY???

LANTERN

Amidts the haze and shade around.
The plethora of fog that surround.
Lost and trembling in the dew.
The lonely desert be survived by only a few.
The bright sheen arose from nowhere.
That instant put my life in gear.
Took my hand and navigated me through.
Steered the ship that had no crew.
Turned my life upside down
Like a beggar been made in charge of the crown.
The ecstasy that I felt inside.
All memories undone were shoved aside.
My prayer and patience has finally been answered.
Extinguished is the fire from which I was always scared.
You walked in everything was messed up.
All around things were so freaked up.
Time spent with you has always been so memorable.
Swept so much that emotions felt intangible.
You got my life back on track.
Fixed up everything that was before abstract.
How can I ever thank you for all the help and suport?
Your constant motivational help and effort.
Took me out of the stress and trauma.
Revived from tragedy to melodrama.
Felt pathetic when I leaving you.
Imagining the next moment when I'd see you.
Before you the entire world seemed deceiving.
Wanted to hug you one more time before leaving.
I promise, with you I'l never fall behind.
My thought process as it was will never rewind.
Together we will walk hand in hand.
You being my lantern, our love will forever expand....
MUAH...

UNDONE

Sarcasm behind every compliment.
Irony concealed in every line.
Double meaning words you implement.
Stuff you say bites me like a K-9.

Contemplating on your thought process.
The dilemma that you lie beneath.
And even if the bitter truth you confess.
Is powerful enough to remove the surface underneath.

Unbearable was the pain that you put me in.
The numbness that injected you.
Excruciating is the punishment of the sin.
How will I ever explain this love to you?

It was never intentional.
Never did I mean a single word of it.
You thought this was my only fundamental.
To look down upon each bit.

You stepped into my life willingly.
When the entire world was against you.
I loved you exceedingly.
May be, that love was never enough for you.

The innocent sweet girl that you were.
Perhaps the sweetest person I've ever known.
Much more than me you deserve.
So by me, on cloud 9, you were flown.

My 'Delicate Darling' I called you.
You insisted on it being antagonistic.
Handling romance was difficult for you.
So, I wrote letters that were bombastic.

The others took you for a ride.
Made you follow their lead.
On job being done they shoved you aside.
Like a worm for the fish to feed.

Couldn't accept the harsh reality.
I initiated an alteration.
To bring a change in you, if not the society.
It was inevitable to undergo this desparation.

Unquestionable is the fact that I was mean.
I did hurt you terribly.
Tried to keep my conscience unseen.
You did put an effort, which I notices vaugely.

I didn't notice things going haywire.
The slow poison that injected your veins.
You got suffocated, so much so, you couldn't respire.
It stimulated a havoc in your brain.

Things going out of hand.
I decided to break free.
Excusing something more than you I deserve.
Hurt and shattered, you seemed to agree.

Realising my mistake, the moment I siad it.
Guess, it was too late to consider.
Another chance? The heart was badly hit.
Antipodal as we are, it's going to hinder.

I cired, begged and wept in pain.
Apologised like a maniac.
Knew without you I'd no longer be sane.
Stark reality like nightmares made me insomniac.

More than a year and a half has passed.
You wouldn't even remeber a speckle.
My memories by you have been stashed.
But, I can recall everything, even your tiniest freckle.

The motive was right, the protocol wrong.
Only desired a better change.
Also the implementation was a bit prolong.
The person I best knew now seemed so strange.

Lost in the process of helping you out.
Trust me, I don't want a single credit for it.
I know you hate me in and out.
Your heart now burns with the spark I lit.

Nether do I expect, nor have any demand.
This task of mine is still 'UNDONE' to you.
I just pray your koys flourish and expand.
How will I ever explain this love to you??

Take Care....

I WALK ALONE

I wrote this for one of my best friends ever on his bday...

I WALK ALONE

Complacency is a choice of self.

I’m walking along.

Moving unnoticed like a dwarf elf.

Humming the same old song.

Lying around in secluded spots.

Camouflaging behind every other wall.

Lonely and alone, I trot.

Moving from dawn till dusk fall.

The material world is distant from me.

Money or bling I cannot feel.

Drama and literature i can’t see.

The blinded sight may never heal.

Coming to terms with the present situation.

Living with the troubles abound.

I’v had enough of this retribution.

The soul that’s lost cannot be found.

Tried hard to stay in touch.

Life had me so messed up.

Taking a look at my memory pouch.

The nostalgia left me totally f**ked up.

All the lovely memories seem so vague now.

The days seem to have vanished.

All I wish is to be back somehow.

Life without you has noticeably perished.

The phones forgot how to ring.

Voices seem to have fade.

The laugh that echoed when we used to sing.

When we got high and had a parade.

It’s a pathetic feeling to see you aren’t there.

I’m really sorry, cause things here have changed.

Life here is already enough a burden to bear.

Please don’t assume it’s something that I feigned.

I still remember and I still care.

It’s just that I don’t express it.

Without me, u’d still fare.

But in our pic, no one in place of me can fit.

Time goes by so slowly.

It just seems yesterday that I turned eighteen.

The party in which gaily.

The magic we created will never lose its sheen.

I’m too stuck up here you see.

I hope you understand.

This place is entirely alien to me.

My mind is not even willing to expand.

I’m not psychedelic, I’m not dyslexic.

I’m just usually broke.

My nineteenth and I haven’t even clicked a pic.

Just gulped a large peg with some coke.

Don’t shed tears for me.

I’m telling you I’ve changed.

Can only expect you to empathise you see.

I see no reason for me being entertained.

Just wana say one more thing.

I still exist, and I’m alive.

Walking along I still sing.

I’m working real hard to survive.

Well...I started writing this for a friend who wanted it for his friend...but i ended up writing something for my friends..only a few of my special friends....

MOVING ON

Day dreaming has become a usual habit.
I venture day in & out like a lonely rabbit.
Into the woods & outta of the bushes.
Dreaming to walk in those mesmerising lushes.

I always felt the need for your reassurance.
But expecting you to care for you was annoyance.
For you I was always there.
& expected you to be there to take care.

You ridiculed me, & my feelings.
But for you, I only rained blessings.
I told you to be aware,
Asked you to take care.

“Remember me, cause I will, I swear.”
For you this seemed too much a burden to bear.
I’ll see you when I come back.
Couldn’t imagine you bitching behind my back.

“To be or not to be”, Shakespeare said.
But you saying “bye” left me dead.
Philosophy and random talks took their toll on me.
I took several measures to vent what you couldn’t see.

Turned to cold meat, numbed my feelings.
Looked for help, but people had their own dealings.
A few understood, a few did not.
Made lots of friends, literally a huge lot.

“Why do you victimise yourself?
Throw her out, like used paper off the shelf.”
Usual questions & usual answers.
Losing all control over my mental prowess.

Limping & stumbling like that familiar rabbit.
Walking around that hole was now a habit.
“What goes around comes back around.”
No one could sense the depth in my sound.
“Get out, find a new home.
This isn’t any good with her gone.”
My fellow rabbits had moved on.
Made me believe that all of them were con.

A few stayed, giving me a piece of their mind.
These were the melodramatic kind.
My emotionally susceptible friends.
Who were essentially a mean to all my ends.

All but one was sweetest of the lot.
She cared for me the most, even though we fought.
“We’re hot rabbits”, she always told me.
Whenever we were sad of things that we ever couldn’t be.

Her heart was somewhere, somewhere too far.
She tried reaching it, in her rusty old car.
Engine failure, flat tyres and an empty fuel tank.
These were usual, & that somewhere was blank.

I was her repairman, to help her get back.
We were almost there, when somewhere lost track.
The map faded away, having nothing to say.
And my best rabbit friend did nothing but pray.

To go to that mesmerising lush, where she ever wanted to be.
She too joined my footsteps, to go where they wouldn’t let us be.
It was difficult to explain her, I tried my best.
She was very willing to put her love to the test.

And so we started our journey, on our rusty car.
Only to get high on a roadside bar.
We smiled to each other when sunken.
And decided to bear each others every burden.

Even today, we’re still on our road.
Swearing to each other that we’ll never ever break the friendship code.
Looking for happiness in small little things.
Cause even we’re rabbits, if not human beings.

Many a hardships we fared.
Many a loosers we scared.
Many a joys we cried.
Many a sorrows we survived.

We shared our troubles, like we did carrots.
Always wanting to fly like beautiful green parrots.
We were always there to support each other.
Unlike some, who didn’t even bother.

The journey still goes on.
We stupid rabbits have to move on.
Our rickety old car, covered with scars.
It is all the result of the harmful journey so far.

We cried to each other and we wept.
Under a lifeless shade, we slept.
In our dreams, revived our jolly time.
Our jokes, we were all the witty kind.

Waking up to realise our uneventful fate.
The nostalgia now had a habit to irritate.
Trials and errors did make us understand.
And one fateful morning, she held my hand.

I looked at her & said, “Thank you.
“I could never have made it without you.”
And she simply said,
“Friends never leave each other, Friends never depart.
They just sit somewhere silently, deep in each others heart,
Saying, I’m still here…”

Luncheon

This is another situational poem about a "perfect" date...Please bear in mind that this is a 10 min job...

LUNCHEON

I had a date in a five star hotel,
But I’d rather have preferred a motel.
Some appetisers and some wine,
I was wondering when she’d begin to dine.

She was hungry and so was I,
But I didn’t have the guts to give those dishes a try.
Russian Salad, penne arabiatta with extra cheese,
She seemed too difficult to please.

Gulping in some pasta, she gave me a disturbing look,
And questioned vaguely, ”How much time will that chicken take to cook.
You’re so procrastinating sweetheart, I could’ve walked a mile.”
“Patience my dear”, I reassured her with a smile.

In came more food and then some desserts,
“How about blueberry cheese cake sweetie ?”
I had to order it for her sake.
No money no honey, it seemed to me,
The waiter with the cheque and a beaming smile walked towards me.

My heart in my mouth, I returned the gesture,
Gave it a demeaning look, ignoring my lady’s beautiful features.
Looking for brainwaves I scratched my mind,
Its no use Rishabh, you’re not that kind.

But just then, the cheque disappeared,
And I was wondering, “Did God just appear?”
“Its my Birthday stupid, and its my treat.”
Wow! I just managed to accomplish a great feat.

What a miracle, forget God, she just saved me.
“Thanx a ton”, I said it with lots of glee.
“Anything for you”, she replied nodding her round head,
But I could sense that she seemed more interested in the party ahead….

This is something that I wrote in four boring chemistry lectures.I've inculcated this new passion for poetry. It's pretty simple. The prof thinks that you're thinking about his lecture and writing something simultaneously.So, it works out pretty well for me. This was one of my last conversations with someone(people who know me can make a very obvious guess).It goes on like...

Beneath the starry skies,
drowned in her gleaming eyes.
I could've made it easier to seem,
cause everything looked like a beautiful dream.
With hurt arms and aching feet,
but, what about the heart that bleeds.
It wasn't easy, I put myself to the test,
to get my heart back, from where I'd left.
Walking with hope in my heart,
a few months ago that you tore apart.
I cheerfully greet you with a smile,
but only for this, I didn't just walk a mile.
"It's late, what summons you here."
"Hi",I said wiping a small little tear.
Ignorance and hatred were obvious on her face.
I was prepared, "Are you going to take my case?"
"Sit",coldly came back the reply.
It was her room,I had to comply.
"What do you want from me?", she said.
"I want you", taking a look at her bed.
Remembering the times, when I lay in her arms.
Looking at her face that was pure and calm.
It has been long since I'd felt her touch.
I was emotional, but she could'nt even sense that much.
So close yet so far,
the pain had left an invisible scar.
So much to say, from whwere should I begin,
and suddenly she says, "When'l you be leaving?"
"I'm sorry,please listen to me."
"It's broken and there's no use. How many times you want that from me?"
"Just this once, I'm ready to change everything."
"Rishabh, all you get from me, is nothing."
Explaining things to her was impossible.
My emotions and feelings to her were not audible.
"Can't you see tha I have changed.
It was our true love that you just stained."
"For whatever happened, it is you who's to be blamed.
You ruined my life and are not in the least bit gonna be spared."
"I beg you, don't do this to me."
"But what about the curse that you put on me?"
"I love you. Come back and we'll be happy forever."
"Come what may", she said, "Never!"
These words came like a thunderclap to me.
In shock I said,"How can you do this to me."
"Well, I just did, and there is no going back.
But, now I think it's time for you to go back."
Tears in my eyes, I wished her good night.
Thinking about the times with her, the times we had a fight.
"Life goes on Rishabh, you have to move on."
From my unstable life, she was now gone.
I took one last look at her beautiful face.
And felt her heart within me, where I had no place.
I wanted to say so much, but I could'nt really dare.
All I could say to her was,"Take Care..."